Pathetic.

I'm trying not to be so down right now. I mean, I leave here on Thursday the 26th! Two days from now! But it's hard to think that I'm going to return to a place I'm disliked, unwelcomed, and hated. I mean, fuck I honestly could care less the state of things, but it's just odd to think I left there with so many friends. And can honestly say, that I did nothing that should of caused this result. I've stood up for myself, and done what I have believed to be morally right. But, people don't see it that way, so fuck it. There's one person that it actually does bug me that I know we won't be friends anymore. There's a simple explanation and absolutely no excuse to be made. I will not be friends with someone who drinks. I'm over and done with that. Time and time again I'm shown that people who have no respect for themselves (drinkers/smokers) are not capable of respecting others. I'm not talking about the ocassionally drinker, but people who just get fucking trashed all the time, who have nothing to live for but the drink in their hand. It's fucking weak. And I will not be a part of it. People know this about me, always have. And to think that someone who has been around me for a number of years, who has been my "best friend", and continually asks me to be a part of their life, would want to take part in such an act. FUCK THAT! Honestly, if you (and you specifically) are drinking, I hope you fucking choke on your hypocritial words. For years you've downed on substance abuse, and now you stand on the same ground as the fucking pathetic you once spoke of. I'm glad to see that everything you said to me was a lie. I'm glad that you didn't stand firm in what you "believe". Most of all, I enjoy my "BEST FRIEND" so blatantly disregarding me.

Don't expect me to be in your life. You're fucking weak.